using sis's laptop to update
because i'm very moody now,
i need to realese all!
but this laptop's empty= =
if i type chinese , i think i need take 5-6 hours to finish the post...
so today my blog is ROJAK!
rojak mean sometime English, sometime Chinese.
depends on my mood.
well, lets start my post~
hmm...
i wake up at 10.30 a.m.
after that , just do revision as usual...
but i very miss you,
so i msg you...
but you no reply at all.
make me angry & sad
and start imagine -ve things
maybe you busy?
maybe your phone no credit?
maybe you chat with others?
maybe you angry me?
maybe you don't love me anymore?
maybe you go aboard?
maybe you......maybe maybe maybe
i can't think what are you doing...
cause we're less chat ...
but just now god sis tell me that your phone credit is limited.
okay...
but ,
why your phone's credit so fast fin?
mayb you chat with others?
i know you got many friends,
expecially is female friends.
i can't force you delete all contact
i can't force you to buy new num
i know,
i'm smaller than you,
i do not have any right to say , do , order even force you do anythings.
but,
at least we can chat everyday, right?
but why??
why you can less contact even no contact in one day????!
i know i can't get mad easily , you don't like.
but how can i happy?
we are too far, so msg is the most important things to keep contact.
but you can said ' dear, i'm in tuition/i wanna revision/ i'm kinda busy now'...
&
you chat with me ,
just for game...
at lest you let me feel like this.
do you think so?
without chat about game,
we've no any topics.
i don't know why we can't chat about our life?
why you can't share your things or secret with me?
i'm hurt.
i'm sad
i feel pain.
before couple,
you everyday chat with me
everyday care about me
sometime,
you will send me some sweet msg
sometime,
you'll worry me if i no reply you.
you won't chat game with me but you chat about life, random topic
i love it.
but how about now?.....
no sweet msg
no contact everyday(if got, also a short period)
let me feel i'm idiot when i msg you but you no reply
argue always....
i know,
you're busy....
i know,
a real relationship
has fight
has faith
has tears
has hurt
has sweet smiles
has genuine laughter
has snorts because of the laughter
has weird ,stupid unnecessary arguments
has patience
has communication
has secrets
has jealousy
& most important,
it has LOVE ♥
i write this post just to realese my temper...
i love you,
but please,
i need care
i need sweet
i need trust
i need safety
i need all of YOU
so ,
please...
can you understand ?
i wish you can see this post.
i will online,
just to post this blog.
